so i'm sitting in my home alone. and its weird i've actually never had a night alone at home and i mean completly alone , just me and the dog. and it's not too bad - it's nice - relaxing - i want to maybe do this once in a while.

I walked in the door - stampeded to get the dog out of it's cage and got greeted by a very full little bladder that needed to go out- i unloaded the car - got followed and jumped on , almost knocked over by my little friend. cleaned up after myself and my little girl, tried on a dress- loved it - and then sat down and ate dinner. as i was doing everything i realized this could have been me - alone with a dog at home - and while it is nicce to have this time and i really enjoy it - i don't enjoy it that much - i love my life and its in that moment i love that i'm a wife and a mom. i mean yeah riley has her moments but i wouldn't know what to do without her - she's my best friend my buddy, and dave well yeah i know i don't know what to do without him. Sunday he had to stay home from church so riley stayed with him and well after church i felt so awkward and strange - i didn't know what to do with myself. anyways my point is though i like this moment i wouldn't want it everyday or for the rest of my life. so i type here watch tv and basically fart around while i wait for my husband and darling little girl to come in the door and for lela to follow barking to greet them. and it will be a wonderful moment.