this month has been characterized by a constant sickness. 2 er visits in three weeks and a hospital admittance. After being in the hospital i am better. slowly gaining strength and slowly eating more food. One problem- no oils and no diary. basically i think i need to become vegi/vegan to survive this pregnancy. it's been very interesting and i'm hoping to stay out of the er and hospital for the next 5 months - the 6th i want to go so i deliver. =) hopefully i can get some kinda of diet plan down. we'll see how it goes. But at least i am doing better. i am uber greatful for that. At this point just trying to take it easy. thanks for the prayers.
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amazingly i'm still sick. i go to my new doc. on monday - which i am looking forward to trying someone new. we'll see how it goes. i am going to beg for a shot if this continues through the weekend. I'm currently taking phenegren so i can try and keep food down.
- I am still going to go out tonight with dave to our 10 great dates - not gonna little the being sick keep me inside anymore- tired of it.

Being sick has made me think less of myself somehow and more of riley. Sometimes i tend to think it's about my schedule and what i have to do versus it's really about her . I feel bad the days she's had to stay home with me cause i'm too sick to take her to school (but at least we have been together) . I'm trying to raise her up to be a woman of God. and that is going to take me looking more at my day at what can i do for her not what can i do for me and if she gets sick or misbehaves and i have to rearrange my day - then that is what the Lord has for me . if i miss my things so what - cause nothing is more important then what God has called me to do as a mother.
But it is still important to develop and show her what a christian marriage looks like and that takes taking time out to cultivate that relationship (i.e. tonight) . It's hard to keep everything in perspective a lot of times. But everyday and every moment is new and you continually get to make that choice every moment which is a pretty nice gift.


Right now it's raining and i hope by tonight it slacks up- i think being in a pool the majority of the week makes me hate getting wet when im in not in the pool- but a good rainey day is somehow relaxing. though i love the sunshine.

Tomorrow is valentines day and we are gonna be making chocolate covered strawberries and i kinda wanna do pancakes for dinner ( on my nice griddle i haven't ever used) - i think it'll be fun - i always love baking and cooking with the family.

anyways have a great v-day weekend.

thanks for reading.

communication and mis-communication.

crazy isn't it . he said she said and then they don't say anything and you read into it.
happens everyday. we assume. we assume when someone doesn't say something or do something.
we draw our own conclusions by what we think they think- which isn't right.
i'm guilty of it all the time.
sometimes maybe we should just not think.
but maybe it's good that we have to overcome pride and admit when we are wrong. or when we have misunderstood or assumed. because once again it reminds us that we are not perfect. only God is.

communication seems to be just such a huge thing . i really want to be a better communicator. but at the same time all i wanna do is listen. hmmm

but today my big thing is communication in a doctors office - i've been real sick lately. and i had to go get an iv to get my hydration back up and all. i'm very greatful the bebe is ok- cause i've lost about 7 lbs but it still looks healthy- praise-
anyways i'm just now being told that my doc. will not accept my insurence - after the fact that i've been seen and when i first made my appointment i was told that if i was a past patient she would accept it. yeah can you say mis-communication - i had to go through 4 people to find someone who finally told me the truth. But isn't it great we have people to communicate for us. I was able to get a case worker to take over for me and get to the bottom of it - to try and get them to file the claim. Amazing isn't it - i maybe aweful at communication but there are people out there that are good at it. And maybe even do it as a job. i'm thankful for those people.
I'm praying the little guy will prevail over big bad money hungry medicine people. we'll see.
But i did find a new doc. and i'm exciting bout meeting them next week. should be interesting. Just praying God leads us to the Dr he has for us .
I also am realizing and knowing that good and bad it's all a gift. another everyday choice to make.

I go back to work tomorrow and am trying to take it extremely easy and not do anything.
luckily i have an amazing husband who is ultra helpful and super duper sweet- very blessed.

Still praying through a lot and trying to make decisions about the next few months.
The months seem to be passing ultra quick.

Thanks for reading.

so i haven't updated in a while. i've been pretty busy. i started working at maley swim school teaching kiddos how to swim. it's been really fun but really exhausting. We found out the day before Christmas eve that we are expecting our second bebe. Which i am really excited about. i already got it some bedding for the crib i do not have for it , for the room it does not have. Yeah we still have not sold our house. We're waiting and will continue to wait until the Lord moves us. I'll find out in a about 5 weeks what we are having and i can't wait.
For the last week though, i have been sick. and i'm ultimately tired of it. I'm ready to be better and be back to normal. i'm counting down the hours till i have to leave my house and go to work and praying that i'll make it through the night alright.
I'm trying to learn how to take better care of myself and not run myself so thin.....not doing to hot a job - last week great example.
But i am learning that i cannot do any of this in my own strength. That i can't really do any of it.
I have to fully rely on him and dwell in him. Which is an everyday moment by moment choice. somedays are better others i fall miserably on my face..
When i feel like listening to music i've been listening to a lot of brook fraiser .
---Riley has a valentines day party with her school on wed and i'm super excited for her. we're gonna have cookies and i'm gonna try and pick up some things for the class before we go into work today. ---- also i'm getting to start a weekly date thing with david - we'll be going to cumc - where riley goes to school- on fridays for a session called 10 greatest dates - i thought it would be something fun to do since i 've been working so much and we haven't been able to spend a ton of time together - the first session is friday. so that's what i'll be doing for valentines day =) plus we're making chocolate covered strawberry's - yummo.

in two weeks we'll be having a womens retreat with our church and i'm supper duper excited.
i know this post is completely random thought-wise which maybe most of my posts are but i feel like this one is a little more.

Thanks for reading.