i sort of still like this thing. bloggers that is. this one feels more like it's underwraps , secret and all. my little girl is pushing on me right now trying to climb and inch her way to the screen hoping to get a glimps or hear johnny and the sprites her fav. t.v. show atthe moment. and there she goes pitter pattering away. for some reason i can write better on here than anywhere else. xanga i just can't do it. i dunno why. i may start updating on here more. journaling and all like i should. even though i know no one reads this. which maybe is for the better. so i own a gallery now and i want to do my best my very best. i want to glorify God with it but i'm not too sure how i guess by doing my best. and honoring him and giving him the glory. I'm afraid i won't be able to do it forever or that i'll have to quit. but i hope not. I'm married. and he's wonderful. he doesn't know it but he is. i don't even think i realize how much i do really love him. but i do. i think i try to close myself off sometimes or be stand-off ish but i shouldn't he loves me. and why would i do that . who knows. i feel like there is so much i need to know about him, so much more to learn. and i wanna and i want him to learn about me too.. he comes home today after work. maybe we'll ge to goof off. who knows. tomorrow i'm hoping to do something worth wild. have fun, go to a park. something. we'll see.