one word
HUMBLENESS
the world--- i hate the world and all it's temptations, it's lies. it's pride.
i find my self tempted and tested about loving them ( the people of the world - living of the word) . and making sure i don't have anger . mernt. at this moment i am catching myself - or rather the holy spirit is doing a little tugging. humbleness. in their pride i find how much more i need to be humble.( do we do things for our own personal gain and glory - oh look at me how great i am- or do we do them for his glory - look at him he did this not i , i am just a vessel ) i see who christ is and how we should live - IN HIM- and see how some people just don't get it - the plain and simple facts- how so many of us are blind to our own wretchedness. we don't want to see it.
but u know what we need to see it - cause when we do we so how much more we really do need christ and how awful we are . and how splendid and wonderful and perfect he is.

i am happy and joyful when i am in him, walking in the spirit glorifying him. When i am most unhappy is when i focus on me and i'm not walking in the spirit.

My focus needs to be elsewhere.

i find for me making bread is calming, and quiet and a simple wonderful time to praise him and glorify him with it - i know that probally sounds a little odd - but there is something so beautiful to me about making bread , how everything works together - how it rises and turns golden and makes this fluffy loaf- all the grains and earthly ingredients - pure ingredients that go into it. then giving the loafs away so that others can enjoy the gift that God has blessed u with - sharing the same joy with others.

this weekend - i get to see my husband - which is always well a pure and wonderful treat. i laid in bed this morning wishing he was still laying beside me , thinking about the word husband and how sweet it was and how i loved saying it - my husband- my loml. my other half. i get to see him tonight and play music with him- seeing now and realizing how much of a gift that is to be able to do that with him, to share something with him that he loves so much. ( so get the keyboard baby - i'm in)
not only to i get this blessed time with him but also with my extended family - they are coming in to town- i get to see some of my best friends - love on them and encourage them- i'm happy to just to be able to be there for them. I can't wait to see them. I alwasy look forward to seeing those smiling faces.

what a blessing.

Riley just pullled up my old rocking chair and climbed in it to be by me on the same level and see what all i am up to , i think it's time to go play and get ready for lunch.