i painted last night it felt good. i'm pretty pleased with it as well. it's a tuscan sunset.

prayer is not telling God what he already knows, it's actively trusting him.
i worry way too much. it's actually a problem for me . it can cause phsyical pain if i let myself worry so much. worry is not trusting God and i whole heartedly know this. But i think i worry and wonder too much about how i appear or what others think of me . I tend well no i do forget my value to him. And that alone should be enough. I think some of the clouds in my mind are starting to part.

Going to clinton today to hang out with a dear friend. can't wait.
also meeting up with a friend to plan a bridal shower for another friend. should be fun

i get to go to oxford this weekend i'm really really pumped i've been wanting to go the last four years and i finally get to go visit some awesome people.


Tomorrow is valentines day and i'm hoping for a good one. i have some things up my sleeve . hopefully he does too. we'll see , we'll see.