one word
HUMBLENESS
the world--- i hate the world and all it's temptations, it's lies. it's pride.
i find my self tempted and tested about loving them ( the people of the world - living of the word) . and making sure i don't have anger . mernt. at this moment i am catching myself - or rather the holy spirit is doing a little tugging. humbleness. in their pride i find how much more i need to be humble.( do we do things for our own personal gain and glory - oh look at me how great i am- or do we do them for his glory - look at him he did this not i , i am just a vessel ) i see who christ is and how we should live - IN HIM- and see how some people just don't get it - the plain and simple facts- how so many of us are blind to our own wretchedness. we don't want to see it.
but u know what we need to see it - cause when we do we so how much more we really do need christ and how awful we are . and how splendid and wonderful and perfect he is.

i am happy and joyful when i am in him, walking in the spirit glorifying him. When i am most unhappy is when i focus on me and i'm not walking in the spirit.

My focus needs to be elsewhere.

i find for me making bread is calming, and quiet and a simple wonderful time to praise him and glorify him with it - i know that probally sounds a little odd - but there is something so beautiful to me about making bread , how everything works together - how it rises and turns golden and makes this fluffy loaf- all the grains and earthly ingredients - pure ingredients that go into it. then giving the loafs away so that others can enjoy the gift that God has blessed u with - sharing the same joy with others.

this weekend - i get to see my husband - which is always well a pure and wonderful treat. i laid in bed this morning wishing he was still laying beside me , thinking about the word husband and how sweet it was and how i loved saying it - my husband- my loml. my other half. i get to see him tonight and play music with him- seeing now and realizing how much of a gift that is to be able to do that with him, to share something with him that he loves so much. ( so get the keyboard baby - i'm in)
not only to i get this blessed time with him but also with my extended family - they are coming in to town- i get to see some of my best friends - love on them and encourage them- i'm happy to just to be able to be there for them. I can't wait to see them. I alwasy look forward to seeing those smiling faces.

what a blessing.

Riley just pullled up my old rocking chair and climbed in it to be by me on the same level and see what all i am up to , i think it's time to go play and get ready for lunch.

A thunderstorm is slowly rollling in and at the moment my mind feels like a rain puddle with millions of different thoughts and ideas falling in at every moment.

The men of our village are currently working once again on our road- trying to fix it but i think they are making it worse , we'll see what comes of this lets run dirt back and forth over the road. my newly cut lawn is wonderful. last night dave put together riley's wagon and did a fantabulous job - this morning riley and i went for a little stroll while the dog did crazy circles around us. while looking around i realized the ants have taken over - but i think dave declared war on them on saturday so i think dave will win. i'm so greatful for him, what an everyday blessing he is and how greatful am i that i get the privelage to lay next to him at night and wake up to his great and wonderful face in the morning. I was thinking about how everything started out with us and how precious that time is to me. He was straight forward , honest. i didn't have to guess with him or wonder, i knew how he felt, he was and is genuine. He didn't play games. And that's pretty awesome to me. I know his character and i'm greatful for that as well. That God has molded him and shaped him that way. That he is in christ and shows that. glorifing him. what an encouragement he is for me.

So riley is pretty much adorable. She's so smart. talking and able to say more words.
responding to music by doing what it says, or singing with it . Then responding to moments in movies like with an uh o or a scream. She loves happy feet right now and everytime the seal tries to get mumble - the main penguin she runs and screams like she is being chased too, then any moment when something happens that is an uh o moment she does it.
she is entertainment. Right now she is dancing around the room.

Time is so precious. Looking forward to seeing my fav. person in the world , reading, painting, cooking, and baking.

my lawn needs mowing.

i'm apathetic towards music and love that my husband is not and that he gives me time to discover it for myself and love it with him. Sometimes when i listen to music i feel like i've heard it before.... i think it comes from him singing those songs around the house, in the shower. and thanks for that. spoon is my new love. i'm currently obsessed with everything stranger than fiction.

family time at the park this afternoon. i'm so excited.

"Lead me , O lord, in your righteousness because of my enemies- make straight your way before me. Not a word from their mouth can be trusted; their heart is filled with destruction. Their throat is an open grave; with their tongue they speak deceit." Psalm 5:8-9

"keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking lies" Psalm 34:13

"When words are many , sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise" Proverbs 10:19

"He who guards his mouth and his tongue keeps himself from calamity." Proverbs 21:23

"Through patience a ruler can be persuaded, and a gentle tongue can break a bone" Proverbs 25:15

" Like one who seizes a dog by the ears is a passer by who meddles in a quarrel not his own. like a madman shooting firebrands or deadly arrows is a man who deceives his neighbor and says "i was only joking" . Without wood a fire goes out; without gossip a quarrel dies down.... The words of a gossip are like choice morsels; they go down to a man's inmost parts. Like a coating of glaze over earthenware are fervent lips with an evil heart. A malicious man disguises himself with his lips but in his heart he harbors deceit. though his speech is charming do not believe him for seven abominations fill his heart..... A lying tongue hates those it hurts and a flattering mouth works ruin." Proverbs 26: 12-20. 22-25, 28

" A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger , the tongue of the wise commends knowledge but the mouth of the foll gushes folly." Proverbs 15:1-2

There is much much more. I decided this morning after reading my study to do an additional study, my heart was weighed heavily upon this morning by the subject of tactfullness, tongues, and maturity. I found the most verses dealing with tongues in Psalms and Proverbs and the harshness and truth of the words well it's unsettling it's so true . it's gets u. It speaks volumes and all of us are guilty of such things. And that is convicting to me.
Now Tactfullness i first learned about tactfulness from Joseph- you know the many coat of colours - yup That boy did not know who to keep his mouth shut and it got him into a ton of trouble. When i think of tact i think of him.... he did in his life learn how to be tact full- i think that comes from maturity and wisdom. knowing when and what to say. Not just blabbing your mouth, running it around town , being loose with your words. Proverbs is a book of wisdom and discipline, prudence, discernment. The words run deep and true, speaking with conviction. The best most use full tool is the book i have here , the Bible. The one i am currently looking at was a wedding gift from our pastor that married us and probably the best tool we could use in our marriage.

The tongue - what a weapon it is. As you see from the verses above it can be used wisely or carelessly. How destructful it is. Hurtful.

- Gold there is , and rubies in abundance , but lips that speak knowledge are a rare jewel. Proverbs 20:15

God is truly teaching me these things , tact fullness, wisdom, discernment, speech ( the use of my tongue), and maturity ( what is looks like ) . Though i think i am learning from my mistakes and the hard way i suppose. How precious is my family and my husband. Our relationship is so precious and sacred i need to treat it that way with the utmost respect. I. Discernment. Advice should come from those i respect. I am learning to choose my words wisely and constantly ask God to guide my words and heart and mind. Everyday , every thought that he be in them and over them. That i speak with wisdom, and guidance , that i am tactful. That i glorify him with this. That my life is one where i continue to mature in him and live a life that shows this . That i can be pleasing not only to Him but to by husband as well.

So i am staying home today in hopes that at the end of the day we will sell dave's car. We're having a few people come look at it and my cell phone at the moment has taken on a life of it's own that i had to change the greeting to if u are calling about the maxima for sale...... speaking of here we go again. ok anyways Yesterday i got to go down to Hattiesburg , my old town, to see my fav. person. I love thursday day trips , they always seem to be the best. And i think riley likes them just as much as i did , even though she had a run in with a ladder and then later on a few chairs . She seems to love the visiting and going around new places and towns. And she just loves loves loves sunglasses. She really digs the over sized look.
This weekend we will be close to being the only family left in town...sadness. All the sprayberry's will be gone. And my parents will be leaving around Monday or Tuesday for Italy - NO FAIR! I'm craving a date with the boy but am afraid we will have to improvise. We'll see what happens. I'm starting to realize the moments where dave and i need to be closest are the moments that we are going to be under the most attack.
I'm back on the hunt for the perfect mommie bag. The one i just got riped and will be sent back becasue it could not fullfill it's purpose - sadness. maybe another one of it's kind will return maybe not - i haven't decided it's fate just yet. The highlight though for this weekend will be when i come home with a brand new foam mattress topper - we have one on the twin bed , our bed has a down alternative that well got lumpy and does not perform it's job well either - so for our bodies sakes ( backs and necks) we are getting a foam temperpedic topper - i cannot wait - i've been waiting all year for this literally- waiting a year!

The weather is amazing, hoping to sit outside on the porch today while riley plays safari with the animals , maybe even read desperaux - how i've missed that little mouse . The weather makes me want to put on a cute little outfit , nice coat and go out for coffee and dinner and just some good quality time with the boy - i think i got it scheduled. Life is too crazy you go from having all this time and going thru life planning and not worrying about a thing to having responsibilities like work and school. Making time for each other is so ultra important ( while i write this i think i should add that riley just rolled onto her back and is acting like a coach roach. but still talking to the zebra and horse) Dates r even more important - to get that one on one time to get to know your spouse even more. There's so much more to learn about him and same for him for me. But that's the fun part. Finding more to love about that person. I like us, genuinely like us, i just wanna go play with him so badly and i'm waiting for the day that we both wear the same t-shirt - running into eachother after school or work at work or home- and look like the gooby couple we are .

A poopy smell is starting to linger in the room and i think i'm being called back to my job. fun times. at least when i'm done i'm gonna try to make some sushi rolls. yummy yummy.