- i'm starting to give into this whole posting pictures thing......

I just got to use my new food processor and man am i in love. I got it to use for my projects and also because a lot of vegan recipes call for blending . And this one works like a dream .


I tend to get these ideas or passions to do things and what happens is i wanna do em all at once, and well david hates it cause sometimes i'll have the best of intentions to make something or eat something and the ingredients just sit there and it never happens- he hates it .
So now i tend to just do one at a time i have a new project to make each week - i've learned.
This week was bubble tea - oh how i love bubble tea.
Now david really thought this was a bad idea and was not convinced that i would do it.
Oh will he be so happy when he gets home.
Those little things at the bottom of the tea are tapioca pearls- i also made the sugar syrup that goes in the tea as well.
Mine was a mango tea. and it is delicious.
Tomorrow i may do it again since i have the supplies already made.

Tonight we're also going to make some vegan kung pao chicken to take with me tomorrow for a fellowship dinner.

It feels really good to do things - like make bubble tea and cook..
I like this whole being at home thing with Riley it's very much a gift.

Nesting....again.


So i've been nesting like crazy. Just a mad woman full of nesting. I'm 5 months and on a mission. To have the best home ever- yes a stretch but i'm determined to have the house the way i'd like it . 100% . The big problem is not only am i nesting but i'm ocd, and a pack rat. i know it makes no sense. So what was suppose to start out as an innocent clear out my perfumes and fix the shelfing in my closet turned out to be - clear out closet , re organize - clean up riley's closet and move baby things to babies closet. Wash baby linens. And clean out my desk and box up what i don't need and somehow find a place for what i need.
Which was : 1- way too much for me too do , 2- way too much- which i was majorly convicted aout through out the night and know i can't do that again. But it got done- Riley helped. My closet is a dream once again and i like it better than when we moved in. Riley's closet is nice and clean and polished with everything in order. Zoe's closet has riley's box full of baby clothes and toys , clean linens , one of those baby bouncer vibrating chairs (i wish i had one for myself) and clothes that are going to be way too big for her but will fit one day so i'm putting em in there. So everyone is in order and my desk is ready to be moved out. I love when things look polished and put together - i get a sense of accomplishment when everything has a place and order- man am i ocd.

The desk was the worst of all because of all the papers and junk- things i didn't need but i had and just stuff. But it was fun to go thru some memories that were hidden in there. My favorite thing i came acorss was from my First baby shower for Riley- my cousin put it together. They had this game or activity wehre they handing out tags and on one side you write when you think i'll deliver and how much the bebe will weigh on the other side you offer some advice or encouragement. She (my cousin) then took all of these pieces and made a book out of it. Yesterday i found this treasure , and snuggled in the encouragement and notes was my mother in laws word of encouragement....... i was stunned and was of course brought to tears what she wrote was perfect and timeless and i have a hand written piece of advice from her for me with my children ( and she signed it Mama Sprayberry- which she was ) ....i am so uber thankful for that gift- it's now sitting in Riley's room on her shelf.

I think that is the hardest or one of the hardest parts about this pregnancy i don't have her- I don't have her timeless advice and encouragement and endless outflowing of unconditional love. How i miss her and crave her .

No one can ever , ever , ever replace her . NEVER. but i have found myself praying for a spiritual moma to come into my life. someone. If it's God's will. I may have used up that though- maybe you only get one per life and my time with mine was so super short. But so precious and sweet.
My mother is not the most motherly type and definatly not the most spiritual or even a picture of unconditional love. So i really crave that influence not only in my life but in riley's , oh i want it for her. Am i to be the only one ....if so for her , that scares me. Completely.
I'm greatful i'll have my husband this time around to take leave time to be with me after Zoe comes but i want that mama figure here too. I think i took her for granted too many times in the beginning.

.....that's really all i can write right now about her or that without completely loosing it as i'm seeing i'm going down that road so i'm going to change the subject quickly........

I'm very excited about getting the bebe room together and Riley is excited as well.
This weekend we'll be finding frames for pictures to hang and finding fabric for pillows to pull the room together.
I hopefully will have her dresser this weekend- which i'm excited about.

Today my mini projects maybe organizing and cleaning out a burrow and sowing some patches on Rileys quilt back together- there are a few splits and i've been meaning to fix if for forever.


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Yesterday i went to church for the first time in forever - because i was actually allowed out of my house to walk . i could go somewhere. so i went to church with my family. And after church the most dreaded question was asked : Where do you want to go eat.   

I'm on an all vegan diet what do you mean where do you want to go eat. The one place my husband knew would be a semi pleaser got a  bad look of please not there from the others.

Oh the pressure - oh the torture of being put on the spot - i thought i would pee my pants from the torture. as sweet was dripping down my forhead from the way too much attention being drawn to me to pick a place for everyone to eat. I finally just said to eat at backyard burger- because they had potatoes and it was way cheaper than anywhere else  they were naming and The last thing i wanted to shout out under the pressure was dang it people we are poor! poor! we can't eat a 20 -30 dollar meal for all of us - think 10 or none at all. Please just let us go home and be poor and eat our own food at our house! pleasE!!!!!!!! But i was trapped in the corner and put on the spot - next time after church i'm running for the car! 

Anyways so i picked this place that the last time i ate there i got sick too- why had i forgotten the day before my er visit. WHY?!?! 

so we went husband fed-check, daughter fed- check-  rest of family seemingly happy cause they like to eat out ALL the time - check. me - i got chicken- why i dunno i thought i might see if i could get some protein and i had some baked potatoe - and i couldn't eat it plain-  yes this place was so not on my diet.   fast forward to this morning. 

Yeah i got sick , sick again like i did the beginning of this year. but the last zofran i took i happened to keep down. Of course my husband was on the phone with me all this time this morning . telling me it'd be ok- i told him i was dieing of course- 

i'm doing better now that the medicine is kicking in for once. But my husband during the sickness and sounds and being married to the toliet told me he's going to gulfport in a few weeks for work.....overnight......without me. 

I'm going to need a babysitter for me . He cannot leave me alone. I don't know how to function anymore without him- this is not good. i'm already looking for someone to just come hang out for the evening no spending the night- just making sure that i don't fall on the floor and die or end up in the er - i mean anything is possible with this pregnancy.  David suggested that i go to my parents and my head exploded- because i could not fathom packing myself or someone else plus throwing a dog in the action......and i'm not suppose to pick up anything......yes head exploded and then i had to go take more medicine and make more sounds for my poor husband to hear. he deserves a reward for this pregnancy for what he has put up with and helped out with as well. So we both agreed - i needed supervision. 24- 48 hrs without him or without help is going to be too much.  So i need a babysitter. 

But i'm doing a little better now - i may even eat a pure vegan blt tonight for dinner- how i crave the combo of just bacon and tomatoes together-  even if it's vegan bacon and vegan mayo-  basically everything i eat is just tofu.....it all comes from tofu every last bit of it  and dang it do they make it taste good enough- they do. and i can eat it and i am greatful. God bless the tofu! 

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there is currently nothing more intoxicating to me than fish sticks- i baked some for Riley for lunch and i wanted to goble up the whole batch.... that's the thing as a pregnant woman you crave things , most of the time things you can't eat or that you dn't eat- mine was a can't eat. oh well. i'm still on a quest to find the vegan version- which may mean i have to make my own who knows.

So i finally got some sunshine yesterday and today - though it rained in between- and my yard feels like a river ran through it . we have another bad wave of storms coming thru tonight and then we'll be in the clear. We're going to be trying to box up everything in the soon to be baby room tomorrow. I feel like the next few days will be busy in the sens of just there are things that we need to do around the house- but it will be nice. =)
On the way outside to survey the yard to see if there was any damage ( the only thing was a loose piece of siding that hopefully david can just pop back in today) i noticed my dog. we have a corgi / chihuahha mix. He's special. He likes to tear the stuffing out of things like his toys - i finally last year found bedding that he didn't try to tear apart in one day. Well i guess he doesn't like his bed anymore. Because for the last few days there has been a never ending pile of green stuffing coming out of his bed. I guess that's his way of telling me to buy him a new bed. I've never met a demanding dog that was so picky about what he sleeps in..... picky. next thing you know he'll be demanding i wash his sheets.

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Rain until sunday....seriously not good news for someone who hates going outside when it's wet.
and someone who's mood is affected by gloom. Last night i was writing in my journal wondering about post partum depression- can you suffer from it before you deliver ??? This is not the pregnancy i was thinking of or hoping for - in the since i thought it would be easy like Riley's and i could be a big pregnant woman showing off her belly. I think i can still show it off once it decides to really show - right now it just looks like i need to get lipo or go on a diet for my belly fat =) i guess you could say i wanted more control- to be able to do what i wanted- when i wanted and not have to be at the mercy of others and subject to such a different diet plan.
But what i do know this about my pregnancy - it is in God's hands and this is what he has planned. And i know he is doing a work and working on me and shapping me - and dealing with me . I never realized for myself how much control is such an issue- but it is. and i'm seeing what it's like to have very very little. and i know it is better .
I must say i have learned that i much prefer the slower pace lifestyle i have come to know recently versus the fast paced life i put on myself and lived . I think riley likes it better too. And i like that i am more available to what God would have me do for the day and what he has planned instead of packing my day so full and having my agenda.
Anyways the main thing that got me wanting to write today was the question of When do you know when the door is closed???
My house has been on the market since last october. We had a buyer that backed out due to a divorce the week of closing. I still have a contract contingent on the sell of my house but it ends next tuesday. They may extend i don't know - but no matter what they do they will put it back on the market. BTW we already have money invested in that house - home inspection and all.
We have had interest and people that want the house but it just doesn't work out. But there is interest. steady interest. So when do you quit. When no one is interested. or when you loose the house you wanted. Or do you just wait till literally nothing is happening.
There are so many benefits to living in town- i can always find reason's to live there .
I only have one for here.
We will start packing up things and move some furniture as well into storage- cause well one of the reason's we need to move- we need more space we are starting to out grow this home.
But one great thing - i could be living in an apartment and having to walk my dog in the rain.... the only thing here is i walk out close the gate and let him out.... but at the same time if i lived in an apartment - i'd probally would have moved - but like i said it def. could be worse-
Anyways yesterday i prayed that if it was God's will for us to stay that he close the door. That if it's his will for us not to move- please close the door- i suppose now i should pray for him to take away the desire to move if it's his will we stay here. Hard things to pray when you originally didn't want to move and wanted to add on and stay here but your husband wanted to move and you prayed over it and asked God to move in your heart. and bam all of a sudden this desire that was never there is there- and you find the supposedly perfect house that you yern to be in. that it hurts. Hurting for a house- silliness. anyways i suppose that is why i'm torn- I thought this desire was from God , and we felt lead by him to do this to move . As a family we don't want the things that are not his will. Though i did do things in my power to try to make it happen faster in my timing. Now i am waiting on him and his timing. And starting to wonder what he is doing . And what are his plans. I'm due in August and with the previa it is unknown how i willbe doing nad what the next frew months will looks like- is bed rest in the forcast in the future- will we move after i "deliver"
questions questions questions. i think maybe i should stop thinking and asking questions and just wait.....wait ..... patiently wait.
I just know i don't want to push something that is not of him. and it's hard to see other people be able to move and us not ...... but that was God's plan and timing for them-
His ways are not my ways... and his timing for my family- is HIS TIMING.
so i wait , i wait to see what he's doing and what he has planned and wait to see if this is an open door or a door he is closing....
right now it feels like it's just hinged between half way open and half way closed- just depends on your perspective. So i suppose i will continue to look at it as a open door until he closes it shut.
i will wait on him.

Hoping for some sunshine so i can go lay in the grass with my daughter and look at the clouds.

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Yesterday we had our doctor visit and it went pretty well. We did find out and confirm i have complete placenta previa , which means the placenta will not move and i will have to have a c-section. Which i'm sad to miss out on that natural birth but know it is in God's hands and that's where i want it to be. I did get the good news that i'm allowed to get up more i just have to keep monitoring myself and making sure i take it easy.
I'm currently watching cinderella with riley. She loves the mice in the story =) , it's very cute and wonderful to get her dialogue on what is going on in the story. I've really enjoyed our time together and I think we will be taking her out of her school at Christ United, they have been simply wonderful but i do think it is time for her to be at home with me and me with her.
I'm interested to see what God has for my family and to watch him provide. I love watching back and seeing how he has gotten us to where we are right now and how he helped make the decisions we needed. I much rather wait on him then for me to go out and try to do it myself.
I want to write more but am currently completely distracted by Cinderella .

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with a growing baby in my belly and a very restrictive diet i tend to get on the scale a lot to monitor what exactly is going on.
this morning i have found out i have actually gained weight- 4 lbs.
i don't know if it will stick around or for how long but it is a nice change to the usual lower numbers every day. So yay for a healthy weight gain.
Tonight david is going to be picking up food from a very very good burger joint in town the reason he is going - they cater to vegan people as well! joyful joyful- there is another resturant i can add to my list of places i can go. they have a tofu dish that looks delicious that i'm leaning toward we shall see. anyways i'm very excited about the new option.
Some of my new clothes arrived today. very excited. i love getting things in the mail- who doesn't.
Riley is still in love with her room- she's been playing in there all morning. Though this afternoon after nap time i'm going to paint her nails for her- make her feel special. =)


i'm having a hard time figuring out what vegan dish i'll be making next week - i'm leaning toward no cheese quesadilla's - we'll see i'm going to search my fav. website later today for ideas.
www.fatfreevegan.com
this has been my life saver since my body decided to go haywire from the pregnancy.
everything is really good, healthy and there is no oil- perfect for the person that cannot digest oils!
here is her blog too
www.blog.fatfreevegan.com
she has a really good strawberry cake recipe up now . try it i think you'll be surprised.


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so i read a few other blogs or i'll happen across some of them and i love how they incorp. pictures- I don't i wish i did but to me it's just so much trouble and i have a flickr to upload pictures onto - once uploaded it's over- i'm done.
i've decided with this new found freedom but also restrictions i need to go back to taking more pictures i've gotten away from a particular love of mine plus what i studied in school so i'm going to try to take more pictures and get back to my flickr account. i'm uploaded some recent pics of riley and also what we recently did to our house. anyways the link is on the right under mexicodreams.
you can also just go to www.flickr.com/dreamingaway i believe.
enjoy if you like doing that sort of thing - there's tons of different things on there

and yes i may have studied photography and art in college and majored in it - and if you personally think i stink you are entitled to your opinion- but also know i have been out for a very very long time =)

so not only am i still on bed rest but i am nesting. and to me there is nothing worse than a pregnant OCD nesting woman. My sweet sweet husband when i called and told him what i wanted to do said "Sure honey i'd love to help you." Letting did he know what he was getting into.
I went online to lowes and bought a kids organizer thing that i am in love with- and man do i love the buy online and pick up in the store- so this resulted in him getting off of work a few minutes early and picking up this thing from lowes. Then coming home and tearing apart Riley's room.
What started out as just Riley's room turned into Redoing Riley's room AND also moving all the furniture in the living room until my awful urge was met. All this having to be done by davids self while i just looked on and said where to put what because i'm not suppose to lift anything. I'm convinced dave will have back problems later on in life - which i think he'll agree- None the less . Riley's room is a masterpiece. It's organized , even the closet looks better and she has a ton of room- She has not come out of there yet today - she'll poke her head out to say how much she loves her new room- but she's been stuck in there all morning.
The living room didn't change too much - it just was like a jigsaw puzzle that we made more difficult but i'm pretty happy with the results. David did an amazing job.
The last thing my little nesting heart wants to do is to redo my office and box pretty much everything in there - i think it will have to wait though till next weekend cause it will most likely take the whole weekend and since the monster in my chest is alseep for now - why wake it. For now the nesting monster is happy but i know it will awake again.

Another great invention - online shopping- i've never loved it so much. for my birthday instead of actually gifts my family gives money and says you go buy what you want. this year i wasn't sure when i would be able to get out of the house and actually do that. hehe well hello online shopping. I did cheat earlier this week and got out of the house for a little bit- i got my hair done - i was sitting the whole time and all just in another location -which i haven't driven in 3 weeks and the day ended with me getting stuck in mud in front of my house- leason learned stay put in house on my butt.
But i am very excited about christmas in march- cause to me that's what it is like. I have clothes coming from urban outfitters, and a movie and a food processor from target, and even some jewelry. i can't wait!!

This weekend david is going to help me make nutella biscotti cookies- i have a dr's appointment on monday and since i feel like i owe the dr cookies for as long as i am pregnant since he fixed me to where i can eat. so i shower his office with food seeing as they've also seen me more in a month than a normal patient - some weird pregnancy urge most likely.
i'll let you know how they turn out.

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God is completely overwhelming me with his love lately.
I don't think i could even really convey it correctly and fully through this.
This week i got loved on hugely by a dear friend who took time to just talk on the phone- a good phone conversation is just priceless too me - expecially when time is not an issue - how rarely do we give someone our time fully and not care how long we talk or what needs to be done- we just talk and give them attention- what a wonderful gift and blessing, was very much a huge encouragement and i cannot wait to talk again- i never knew what a dear friend i had until now and am ashamed i have not been better and have not taken advantage of her friendship.
I definatly underestimate how much i am loved and desire to be a better lover of others and a better friend- to care about others and let them know how much they are loved. I desire to give more.
My birthday is Monday and my husband totally threw me for a loop when he took me out last night and ended up back at my parents house for a surprise party i never saw coming- talk about humbling - that people would come to celebrate my birthday - some from out of town , some i hadn't seen in forever, some with young kids- what a wonderful group and blend of friendship- and my sweet dear husband had a huge web of lies conceived so i would not figure it out - everyone was in on it , my parents helped with the lies- which i don't endorse lieing but when it is for a great purpose of giving a wonderful gift of love- please go ahead- i even had a cake- my goodness. I do not think i deserve any of the trouble anyone went to , the cake, the food, any of it . i am blessed, and humbled, and overwhelmed with the love God has shown me this week through others. This has been by far the best birthday..... by far.
I love sitting and being at the feet of God asking and waiting for his will- and seeing what he is doing - what a blessing and gift. Yes i maybe on bed rest and yes my placenta is on my cervix ( yes that means i hugely cheated last night by my husband taking him out - but i was not going to rob him of his gift whatever it was going to be ) but i am greatful for this time - of just waiting - of not knowing - cause i know exactly who has me and where i am - in his loving hands. and sometimes when i sit in my recliner i feel and try to visualize that i am just sitting right in the palm of his hand - and everything else just falls away.
Don't get me wrong i still strong and have days where my flesh comes out in full force and i loose sight of it all. sometimes more than others- i am not perfect - i deserve nothing- But i'm starting to really realize the fullness and gift that is God's love.
The times i really loose sight is even a gift - cause it draws me back to him and humbles me at the same time - I am not that great and i cannot do anything without him. And what a picture to have - bed rest - sitting the majority of the day and week - not being able to do much without the help of another - that is how i should live - less my work and more his.


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so my new oil free dairy free diet is going well. being vegan not so bad. the cook (ellie) at the high noon cafe is making me a cheese cake tomorrow - she makes my fav. so i can't wait. it's oh so yummy- it's going to be raspberry- i would attempt to make one myself right now but i am currently on bed rest due to my placenta previa - my placenta is on my cervix and my spotting has picked up a little so i'm on bed rest for this week- and hopefully will be off next week. sorry if that was tmi for some. 

Obvioiusly God wants me at home - or at least resting. And i know full and well my life is not my own it is his. Plus i have this person i'm dying to get to know in my belly that i want to take care of. So God has been keeping me home more and more and more till finally i'm on bed rest. Which is fine. I really honestly want to do his will and want what he has for me. I wonder what exactly that is. Right now i sit and i listen and i wait. And am waiting for him to show me what he has. 

I do think i am going to paint today - i have an idea of what i want to do but am interested to see what happens. 

i turn 25 in less than 2 weeks. Riley keeps telling me my birthday is coming up. 

It's been really great to be home with her cause i am getting to see her sweet spirit and interesting personality .

This morning she told me "mommy when i this many i gonna be able to drive.....ooooh yeah"   the prolonged oh followed by the yeah is what really got me. I have been majorly blessed by my sweet family and am astonished and knocked on my back constantly humbled when i see their unconditional love - a shining example of jesus - what a testimony they are to me . If only i could shine as they do. and radiate like they - 

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this month has been characterized by a constant sickness. 2 er visits in three weeks and a hospital admittance. After being in the hospital i am better. slowly gaining strength and slowly eating more food. One problem- no oils and no diary. basically i think i need to become vegi/vegan to survive this pregnancy. it's been very interesting and i'm hoping to stay out of the er and hospital for the next 5 months - the 6th i want to go so i deliver. =) hopefully i can get some kinda of diet plan down. we'll see how it goes. But at least i am doing better. i am uber greatful for that. At this point just trying to take it easy. thanks for the prayers.
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amazingly i'm still sick. i go to my new doc. on monday - which i am looking forward to trying someone new. we'll see how it goes. i am going to beg for a shot if this continues through the weekend. I'm currently taking phenegren so i can try and keep food down.
- I am still going to go out tonight with dave to our 10 great dates - not gonna little the being sick keep me inside anymore- tired of it.

Being sick has made me think less of myself somehow and more of riley. Sometimes i tend to think it's about my schedule and what i have to do versus it's really about her . I feel bad the days she's had to stay home with me cause i'm too sick to take her to school (but at least we have been together) . I'm trying to raise her up to be a woman of God. and that is going to take me looking more at my day at what can i do for her not what can i do for me and if she gets sick or misbehaves and i have to rearrange my day - then that is what the Lord has for me . if i miss my things so what - cause nothing is more important then what God has called me to do as a mother.
But it is still important to develop and show her what a christian marriage looks like and that takes taking time out to cultivate that relationship (i.e. tonight) . It's hard to keep everything in perspective a lot of times. But everyday and every moment is new and you continually get to make that choice every moment which is a pretty nice gift.


Right now it's raining and i hope by tonight it slacks up- i think being in a pool the majority of the week makes me hate getting wet when im in not in the pool- but a good rainey day is somehow relaxing. though i love the sunshine.

Tomorrow is valentines day and we are gonna be making chocolate covered strawberries and i kinda wanna do pancakes for dinner ( on my nice griddle i haven't ever used) - i think it'll be fun - i always love baking and cooking with the family.

anyways have a great v-day weekend.

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communication and mis-communication.

crazy isn't it . he said she said and then they don't say anything and you read into it.
happens everyday. we assume. we assume when someone doesn't say something or do something.
we draw our own conclusions by what we think they think- which isn't right.
i'm guilty of it all the time.
sometimes maybe we should just not think.
but maybe it's good that we have to overcome pride and admit when we are wrong. or when we have misunderstood or assumed. because once again it reminds us that we are not perfect. only God is.

communication seems to be just such a huge thing . i really want to be a better communicator. but at the same time all i wanna do is listen. hmmm

but today my big thing is communication in a doctors office - i've been real sick lately. and i had to go get an iv to get my hydration back up and all. i'm very greatful the bebe is ok- cause i've lost about 7 lbs but it still looks healthy- praise-
anyways i'm just now being told that my doc. will not accept my insurence - after the fact that i've been seen and when i first made my appointment i was told that if i was a past patient she would accept it. yeah can you say mis-communication - i had to go through 4 people to find someone who finally told me the truth. But isn't it great we have people to communicate for us. I was able to get a case worker to take over for me and get to the bottom of it - to try and get them to file the claim. Amazing isn't it - i maybe aweful at communication but there are people out there that are good at it. And maybe even do it as a job. i'm thankful for those people.
I'm praying the little guy will prevail over big bad money hungry medicine people. we'll see.
But i did find a new doc. and i'm exciting bout meeting them next week. should be interesting. Just praying God leads us to the Dr he has for us .
I also am realizing and knowing that good and bad it's all a gift. another everyday choice to make.

I go back to work tomorrow and am trying to take it extremely easy and not do anything.
luckily i have an amazing husband who is ultra helpful and super duper sweet- very blessed.

Still praying through a lot and trying to make decisions about the next few months.
The months seem to be passing ultra quick.

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so i haven't updated in a while. i've been pretty busy. i started working at maley swim school teaching kiddos how to swim. it's been really fun but really exhausting. We found out the day before Christmas eve that we are expecting our second bebe. Which i am really excited about. i already got it some bedding for the crib i do not have for it , for the room it does not have. Yeah we still have not sold our house. We're waiting and will continue to wait until the Lord moves us. I'll find out in a about 5 weeks what we are having and i can't wait.
For the last week though, i have been sick. and i'm ultimately tired of it. I'm ready to be better and be back to normal. i'm counting down the hours till i have to leave my house and go to work and praying that i'll make it through the night alright.
I'm trying to learn how to take better care of myself and not run myself so thin.....not doing to hot a job - last week great example.
But i am learning that i cannot do any of this in my own strength. That i can't really do any of it.
I have to fully rely on him and dwell in him. Which is an everyday moment by moment choice. somedays are better others i fall miserably on my face..
When i feel like listening to music i've been listening to a lot of brook fraiser .
---Riley has a valentines day party with her school on wed and i'm super excited for her. we're gonna have cookies and i'm gonna try and pick up some things for the class before we go into work today. ---- also i'm getting to start a weekly date thing with david - we'll be going to cumc - where riley goes to school- on fridays for a session called 10 greatest dates - i thought it would be something fun to do since i 've been working so much and we haven't been able to spend a ton of time together - the first session is friday. so that's what i'll be doing for valentines day =) plus we're making chocolate covered strawberry's - yummo.

in two weeks we'll be having a womens retreat with our church and i'm supper duper excited.
i know this post is completely random thought-wise which maybe most of my posts are but i feel like this one is a little more.

Thanks for reading.

Right now it's snowing. I love it - so far we have gotten 3 inches. 

It's amazing - since we have lived in Florence it has snowed heavy 2 times - which is a lot for mississippi- and it's stuck - i'm gonna miss that i think. Below 20 ( an interstate in jackson that runs thru the state horizontally) it's a different world - we always get different weather than anywhere else in the state. Anyways it's been an awesome snow day- we played in the snow - had a small snowball fight with my daughter - made a snowman and took tons of pictures. Then we also have made frosty fav. cookies (sugar cookies with white chocolate and cinnamon on top. ) 

There is something so comforting about the snow. 

David got to  come home around lunch too - they let the state employee's go since it's getting so bad out - what with the snow and all =) 

I'm looking forward to curling up to a good book and enjoying the nicce weather and staying in. 

On wed . morning i go and teach a morning swim babies class - and before - after i've dropped of Riley at school i go to Mcdonalds and get a mcgriddle- my fav thing to do- i like to go inside and see the people and i just enjoy it i don't know why .Anyways last week the place was hopping a bunch of older women - around my grandmothers age all had gotten together and were eating breakfast and chatting it up - it was so fun to watch the friendship and all. I hope that when i'm that age i'll have those type friendships - Maybe Riley will still think i'm awesome and we'll still hang out =P 

David graduates next week- i'm so excited for him and looking forward to what God has for us. i'm so excited about the next chapter for our family. Thanks for your continued prayers . 

Also really excited that next month i'll have been Mrs. Sprayberry for 4 years now. 

i'm hoping later today we can go do snow angles . i think my classes are going to be canceled tonight (swim class ) so i'm actually looking forward to having a true day off and just getting to stay around the house - a nice surprise and blessing. 

thanks for reading =) 

i'm devastated.  The buyer for my house has backed out ..... But the house we are wanting and have been praying over - they are willing to extend the contract. 

I'm at a loss. 

I know without a shadow of a doubt who my God is . 

He is mighty. He knows All. He has plans to prosper me. HE is working right this moment. He parted the Red Sea. He calmed the storms and raging winds. He healed the sick. He calms the storm inside me .He calms my anxious heart. 

We were so close. and i feel like it all just got taken away . the rug taken from underneath our feet. I feel like we are back at stage one. David says we are just halfway there. Inspections done and such. I'm praying for a buyer . Someone who wants my house- needs my house. Obviously it was not her.   Heartbroken. I thought we were going to be in Jackson for Christmas. Crying with joy that this finally happened. I dunno where we will be now - Florence or Jackson. I totally believe we could still move by the end of the year. I'm not betting on it . I'm hoping for it. I trust him. I really do. But that doesn't mean that this doesn't hurt. It hurts. 

At least we still have graduation to plan for and celebrate. 

And things could be so much worse. 

So now i'm back to waiting again. I'm going to escape into a book this afternoon. 

As dave said humorously this afternoon- at least we didn't go ahead and sell our bed. ( we were selling some items on craigslist -cause we have some stuff in storage still ) 

My hope and trust is not in man but in God. I know what he can do - i've seen it. 

I know what he's done in my life. I will wait . Patiently for what he has. 

Maybe we'll still move this month. I really hope so. I really do. I think that would be one of the greatest Christmas presents we could ask for. 

Please continue to pray for us. And for the person God has for our house. 

Thanks for reading. 

So we got the house we were wanting. We close on both on Dec. 12th. We are super duper excited.  I can't believe we are actually going to move into town. Plus that i have to pack up this whole house. I'm a little overwhelmed with it but i know it'll work out. 

I can't wait.  I love the location and the house- and the best part is it's really move in ready- we don't need to paint or anything. 

David is home today- i think he got the stomach bug - he was sick all last night. not fun. 

hopefully he is feeling better today. 

Thanks for your continued prayers- We are really excited about starting this new chapter in our lives. 

And as always Thanks for reading. 

Waiting and trusting .........

so Yesterday a woman (her name is Kimberly) came and looked at our house...... And she liked it .......she liked it so much she made an offer right then and there. We have accepted that offer.

I'm a little in shock - i hoped and prayed it would be this soon. But i didn't really think it was this soon- i was just waiting.  Our Closing Date is Dec. 12th - that's right three weeks from now. 

We did find a house we liked and put in an offer last night - we're waiting to hear.  If they don't accept I'll be searching this weekend for a home. 

please continue to pray for us in this area. We take complete comfort in knowing that God WILL provide. I'm waiting to see what that will look like but know that whatever happens it is what is best. And i love that. 

I Knew and took  comfort that God was moving and doing something 

It's awesome to start to get see what he is going to do - i'm thrilled and so thankful he has given us this awesome opportunity. 

Big Changes are coming for our little family and i can't wait to see. 

This really is HUGE. 

And it's all GOD.

Please please continue to pray for us. 

So riley started not feeling well yesterday morning. by 11 she had a fever of 102.3 . she's never had a fever that huge-it was slightly unnerving. i hate when she's sick. anyway she spent the night with me in bed - poor thing was quite pitiful. But by this morning her fever had broke. She's naping right now and i'm praying we are officially out of the woods. 

I'm relaxing while she sleeps . And david has been straightening up my house ( i ran to the store to fill up our cabinets with food for the week). because we are having someone come look at it tomorrow. Pray for us.